contemplation

It's been so long since I've taken the time to blog. I've missed it quite a bit. The last few holiday weeks have allowed more time for reflection on me. I have consistently struggled with balancing life. A mother who works, tries to have a personal life, tend to her husband, and entertain a few hobbies can be tough. However, I think maturity has allowed me to reflect back on my past and figure out the grey areas of life that have bogged me down over the years. I think life became a little crazy and filled with chaos years ago. I struggled with raising a baby, going to college, pregnant with another baby, getting married, graduating college, Sean and I both starting new jobs, and buying a house. That sums up where chaos began. Life changed for us at a rapid speed. Almost like I couldn't grasp ahold of it because it moved so fast.

Recently, I have taken time out and realized that life is finally slowing up for us a little. I feel like I may have a little grasp on reality and life. 

Teaching has been on my mind lately. Struggling with if its really meant for me or not. I remember when I first started teaching. I loved going to work each day. I was grateful for all the I was given. I was excited to walk into my room each day. Now, I am struggling to remember these reason daily. Between data and the stress of a test it becomes difficult to see the light of happiness. However, I am refusing for the joy to be taken out of my passion. I used to refer to teaching as a hobby I had not a job. However, lately its become a chore - personally. I am seeking to change this over the next few months.

I have been contemplating going back to school as an accountant, web designer, and/or public relations/marketing. These are careers I contemplated before seeking an Education Degree.

Besides change of career as a topic - I'm excited our house is on the market. We have had some people come see it, but nothing promising. I can't wait to see what our next house will be for us. I am ready to begin a new chapter of life. The home for 'forever'. The boys are constantly asking when we will move. They are ready for a change, but I'm not sure they really understand what it means.

Running and working out in 2013 was really good for me. I wasn't consistent daily or even weekly, but I definitely led a more healthy conscious life. I hope that I can continue with this but still to strive to eat better and cook more at home. I am consistently struggling with cooking at home. I also hope this changes when we move with a bigger kitchen and dining room to eat in. I've also bought T25 workout videos. I hope to be able to begin this next week.

I have started back on our Dave Ramsey plans. It proved us good in 2012. I can't wait to gain more progress in 2014. I can't believe that this year Sean and I will be married 5 years! :) O, 2014 please be as nice to us as 2013.