Wandering

Why is it that I still have days that I feel like I'm muddling through the routine? It's like I'm still unsure about my direction. Am I coming or going? It's my personality to overthink everything. I over think teaching, kids, weightlifting, running, shooting...you name it. I once realized it when I was shooting a gun for the first time. I started talking about being a quarter of an inch off and giving my reasoning....why do I have to explain myself every time? Because I think too much. I really hate it. I wish on some level I could let loose a little and kick back. I am mentally exhausted at the end of every day.